a person or thing with only one special feature, talent, or area of expertise.
As a creative being and entrepreneur, I have always struggled with the train of thought that business has to be linear. That I had to pick just one thing and go be good at that ONE thing. That has always bored the hell out of me. I am dynamic! My wasband is an engeer...still has his first job out of college. Just the other day we were standinng in the foyer of my home, I just graduated and became certified in Spiritual Psycology, He says to me, with that look and tone, “What are you going to do with that?" I said, "I really don't know. I feel called to it." See, creativity is anything but linear in my experience. Sure there are certain processes that get to be followed to get to the thing that wants to live in the world but the cradle of creativity is a wild ride...much like a roller coaster. Put your hand up! I’ve had a lot of life experinces and I can tell you that I have learned, it starts with listening. This is something I am honing and attuning to everyday. The voice inside me that just knows, I’m right where I am and when I’m not, I get to move.
I can't remember what age I was when I knew I was different, in not just how I look physically but in my thinking process about nearly everything. I feel that it is just something I knew that was and is unique to me and who I am in the world. I am outside the box and now I don’t fight that fact. I don't do anything like other people do. There is nothing typical about me. As I write this, I am snuggled in bed with my nine year old, Silas. I am struck by my own knowingness and saying it out loud in this writing. I know that everything happens for a reason, there are no accidents or coincedences. It is all part of the journey. Creatively, I have been inward for sometime, working myself out in my very own spiritual gym, developing practices that enhance the life I am creating now. I can't explain it in any better terms, other then to say, that I came to this place inside that understands that for the better part of my life, my creativity has been expressed outwardly. It had been in my doingness...I am a dancer, I am a designer, I am a self taught chef. All of these amazing attributes have manifested in recitels, productions, plays, custom furniture, lights, drapes, remodles, fabrics, dinner parties and events. This is all outside mainifestation of my individual talents and inharent gifts. What if I told you that underneath all of that was a desire to just BE...without the doing of anything. That is how I feel as of late. It's this amazing feeling of allowing myself to be on this journey, feeling my feelings and sharing that with you. I am birthing a new area of my creativity. It is rooted in my being free and brought forth in my word. It is an aspect of the beauty I am that I have kept hidden under glass. Othere's have seen it but few have been allowed to touch it. I thought I had to prove it by doing it. Now, I know I get to allow it to just BE and trust the process. This is how I Love myself. Thank you for reading ❤️🌟🙏🏼