On being a Goddess:
My #wasband is right. I need a powerful man because I am a powerful woman. Balance! I am Venus after all. In truth I should come with a warning label. I’ll meditate on how it will read and write on it another time. He...my #wasband used to say I was roller coaster. In hindsight the highs were so high and the lows were so low. The deepest of lows I have yet to experience. Today, that roller coaster is a metaphor for the mechanical nature in which I functioned...a well oiled machine that was automated and programmed to perform on a single track of play on two rails. The ride was the same...over and over and over and over. Year after year after year. You get the point...Mediocre monotony in action. The one track experience of expectations, dissatisfaction and disappointment of living inauthentically. This is my vantagepoint on my own sellout. I say these words without any self judgement attached to them. It’s what I chose at that time in my life. In 2012 that ride broke! No...let me own that! I broke. The ride I was spontaneously combusted in very slow motion. It was ugly, painfully brutal and violent. I am going to write on that too. It’s coming. My life could never go back to what it was and has never been or could be the same again. I was so unclear in who I was. I was iving in denial with blinders on and without any responsibility. Sometimes it takes tragedy in order to see yourself clearly. This has been my journey and I continue my pilgrimage into knowing more deeply the capacity of all I hold. Today, I am clear in me. I am tsunami. I break open wide and often. You will feel me. I know what I want, what I require and where I have been. I know that it takes a certain kind of someone to be able to hold a woman like me. I am rare. You may be able to catch my eye but to hold my attention is another story. Today, I see through to the heart of you because I see me. I am not afraid to look and be with who you really are. I can say and mean yes and give a true no. I know how to ask for what I want. I don’t and won’t sell out or settle. I may see and feel your truth before you do. I may Love you and still let you go. My capacity is like nothing you’ll ever encounter again or be able to undo. I am impact and imprint. I make no apologies for the amount of space I take, the one I give or for being the kind of woman I AM. I no longer live in a glass house of shame because I AM LOVE.